Low spirits

I'm happy to report things are kinda quiet right now. I don't see Dr. Kubba again until July 12th. I'm waiting to hear about a scan, CT scan I guess. Oh joy, I get to drink barium again! The thought of the scan makes me very nervous - scanxiety! You'd think there wouldn't be anything there but who knows. And if there is something there will they give me more rituxan or will they want another biopsy!? I have to admit, my spirits are kinda low - just waiting around for another shoe to drop. How do people do this?